nothing from nothing

I don't swim like the other fish
my eyes don't gleam anymore
my belly is always full
burning with remorse
tingling heart beats in it's bony dungeon
dirty fingers caress the shaking body
an anti-hero is something to be
crushing pain
on the wrong side of the tracks
the blood shimmers and vibrates
sun and heat squeeze me
blackness developing around
flickering lights
the static of life
every thing i never really knew
was right